I grew up in a military family moving from place to place roughly every 4 years. That was my sense of normal and as I grew up, I found myself wanting to move regularly. I thought it was because moving was my sense of normal but recently I realized I don’t have that impulse to move. You see before, I was moving as a way of running. Running away from myself and hoping happiness would find me at my next destination. It worked a little bit because of course there was always the excitement of something new. Yet once that novelty wore off, I caught up with myself.
No matter how fast you run, you can never outrun yourself. I had to finally stop running and face myself. I had to address uncomfortable feelings and do a lot of inner work to get to this point. While it was a difficult and frankly sometimes exhausting process, I’m so glad that I persevered because it has helped me get to where I am now. Today I just wanted to encourage you if you can relate to that point in my life where I was running from myself. I know it can be uncomfortable but it’s by facing that discomfort that you’ll be able to finally address the things you’ve been running from and taking with you all along.
There’s no one way or “right way” to do this but if you’re open to it, the ways that are right for you will show up in your life. Be open to people, situations, and resources coming into your life to help you face the obstacles you need to overcome and the areas you need to heal. The route that you choose will be up to you but you’ll see it once you start looking for it. Be gentle with yourself and remember this is a process. Awareness is the first step towards change. Change and healing happen over time not overnight.
I’m sending you lots of love and wishing you all that you need to support you in healing the relationship with yourself.