I have to be honest, I haven’t been committed to my fitness for the past month and a half. Last Friday was my last day at work so I made a decision that this month I was going to focus on being more active. We started renting a car about two months ago and that was the worst thing that could have happened to my active lifestyle!
I still walk, but not as much. I was walking about 3-5 miles a day out of necessity. Now I walk about 1-3 miles a day, it’s better than nothing but I can see the difference that it’s made in my weight. On one of my last Fit Friday posts I celebrated a weight loss achievement, I haven’t stepped on a scale in a while but I’m pretty sure I’ve gained it back and some.
Like I said, this month I’m focusing on being more committed to my active lifestyle. I started Yoga class this week. I go twice a week to Power Yoga for an hour. Boy has that been an unexpected emotional roller-coaster… The class itself is great and I love the instructor, she’s very sweet, encouraging and supportive. I’m the heaviest person in the class (I can’t remember the last time I took a fitness class) and I see myself in the mirror for an hour twice a week. I hadn’t realized how bad my body image issues were until I started this class! I realized that I avoid mirrors at all costs (I only have full length mirrors on my closet doors and I never really look in them) and I don’t like to be in pictures (I’m alright with head-shots but not my full body). The picture thing is really sad to me because a lot of times we’ll look back on trips from a weekend or a family event and I’m not in many if any at all. I don’t want my kids to look back and not have pictures to spark the memories.
I enjoy going to Yoga and it’s funny because I leave the class feeling really peaceful and relaxed but emotionally exhausted. I struggle to get in the poses, I wiggle to maintain them, and my wrists hurt from not being used to supporting my weight on them. I try to focus on the bright side that I’m more flexible than I thought. I’m able to do all of the stretching and bending poses with ease (I guess my childhood gymnastics classes served me well). I’ve only been to two classes so far and I was able to get into Salamba Sirsasana (which is a supported headstand) more easily last night than I was on Tuesday. I was surprised by the improvement from just one class to the next. So now I just need to focus on working my core so I can strengthen it and practice the poses so I can hold them longer in the proper position.
I’m also going to start walking more on the days that I don’t have Yoga and do some fitness DVDs that I have at home. Hopefully increasing my activity level combined with juicing I’ll be able to lose the 40 pounds I’m looking to loose to get back to my ideal weight. It may only be 40 pounds but it looks and feels like a lot more. I want to get back to my ideal weight so I can feel better about myself and as a preventative health measure. I want to feel good about seeing my reflection in the mirror and not wonder how I got this big and only looking at my problem areas. I want to wear a tank top without being self-conscious about my arms jiggling. I want to wear shorts for the first time in almost 10 years. I want to put on a two piece bathing suit and wear it with confidence. I want to be in better shape in my 30’s than I was in my 20’s.
How’s your fitness journey going? Are you making goals and crushing them? If not, what’s stopping you? What can you do to get around it? What help keeps you consistent? What motivates you? Can you relate to this post? Have you ever been able to relate to it? Are you in your “after” phase now? Share your thoughts!